My daddy

One year ago today our AC broke and it was blazing hot in our house. So in middle of the night we went on over to James and Heather's house baby, and puppy and all. That next morning was a Saturday. Jordan was at work with James. I went back home to quickly take a cold shower and put Jess in a cool bath while I put my hair up and put on a little bit of makeup. Then I went over to a friends house to do some hair. After that I decided to go to the mall since it was nice and cool there. In between all this I got a random call from my brother. He asked if Jordan was with me. I said "No he's at work. He should be home soon. Did you need to ask him something?" and he said "Kind of. Tell him to call me as soon as he gets home." 

While I was browsing in forever 21 I got a call from Jordan. He asked what I was doing and how long I was going to be. Then he said he wanted me to come home as soon as possible. Then my heart started racing and I started to panic. Something was wrong. I asked him why and he said he had to tell me something but he wanted me to be home. Well I'm not a patient person and there was no way I was going to wait for him to tell me something that sounded so urgent. Then I begged him to tell me. And just as I was begging him one thought came to my mind. My dad. Was he okay? Did something bad happen to him? Then Jordan said he wanted me to stay at the mall and he would come pick me up because he didn't want me driving. Then he told me the worse news he could ever tell me. My dad passed away during the night. Right then my heart sank and everything became a blur. I started crying right there in the middle of Forever 21 and all I can remember saying was "Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!" I stormed out of the store trying to see through the tears in my eyes. I went to wait for Jordan was I cried and cried and prayed that my little baby Jess wouldn't sense how sad I was. 

Jordan picked me up and explained to me that my brother called him and told him that my father had passed away sometime during the night. My mom had thought he was sleeping all morning and when she went to wake him up she realized he was cold. My brother didn't want to tell me when he called me because he wanted to make sure Jordan was with me. Of course I called my mom and she was pretty much in shock. I knew I didn't want to go home so we decided to take a drive out to the Temple.

I'm pretty sure I will remember that day forever. And today, one year later, it feels just like yesterday. I still can't believe he is gone. But I am at piece in my mind knowing that he went peacefully. He went the way I would like to go one day. My mom said the day before he was so happy. He had a great day. He wasn't in any pain at all. He just passed away in his sleep. My mom said he looked so comfy. It makes me feel better to know that he didn't suffer.I also feel like he is always watching over me. He has been in my dreams every single day since that day. Some dreams I don't remember but most of them I do. They are always happy dreams and I wake up feeling like it's his way of letting me know that he is fine and that he is looking out for me. So today will be a happy day. It will be a day of celebrating his life. My mom said she is going to get ice cream and drive through the back roads like they used to do. I think I'm going to go get ice cream too. Maybe he is one of those stars in the sky smiling down at us. I love you, Pop!

A little obsessed

So if you ask Jordan, he will tell you that I'm a little obsessed with these dollhouses. I already did one post about the pink dollhouse we got Jess a few months back. I'm an avid Craigslist shopper and starting to really love yard sales and thrift stores. I found this first dollhouse with all the accessories for WAY less than the price I've seen in the stores. 

  

And then I found this blue house of course on Craigslist for $5. How could I pass that up?! It didn't come with any furniture so my mom sent me some money so I could get some necessities for the house. And where did I find the furniture? Take a wild guess. Haha. 

Here is the living room in the blue house. 

I found this baby at a yard sale for ten cents! What a gonga! She came with a mom and a big sister. 

Here is an adorable little ducky bathroom. I always wanted a ducky bathroom but I've never had one so this is perfect!

And look at this cute little sink with a medicine cabinet that opens. 

This is the little girls room with matching twin beds. 

I got a little crafty and made these beds for the house with comforters and pillows.

Here is another bed I made. I think this one is my favorite because I love zebra print. Jordan would freak if I put a zebra print comforter in our room. Haha. So this will do. 

And this is a fourth bed that I made. I actually like this for myself. I wouldn't mind having my bedding these colors! 

The kitchen in this house totally reminds me of my mom. She has chickens all over the place in her kitchen. 

And last here is the nursery in the blue house. Jess calls that little yellow mouse a monkey. 

Now on to the pink house. This is the laundry room complete with washer and dryer and ironing board. Jess always puts the little towels in that green laundry basket in the washer and dryer. She must watch me do it in our real ones. Haha. 

Here is the living room with some couches and chairs and swings for the babies. There's also a fireplace and a grandfather clock. 

Here's a pretty cute little office. Jess likes to talk on the tiny phone and plays with the computers little keyboard that pulls out like  real one.

Here's the bathroom with a little potty for the baby to use. 

The kitchen with the little puppy in the bed. One of Jessalyn's favorite thing about the house. She also loves putting the babies in the highchair to eat some "nums" as we call it around here. Haha.

Jess and I loves this little crib. The mobile plays a song when you press the button. She loves to press it and sing along to it. This is the little toddler girls room. As you can see her little head poking out of the crib.

The mommy and daddy's room.

The little girls room.

and the twins nursery all the way at the top of the house.

Jess loves this puppy. The dog usually has a little pink bandana on but silly Jessie Jess always takes it off. 

Here is the little yard complete with a grill, a garden and a swing set and slide. Or as Jess would call it a "Wee!" 

Her favorites parts of the house are all the babies of course and the puppies. And she absolutely loves putting them in the "wee!" 

I came across some youtube videos of moms who make all these things for their daughters dolls. I found this one mom who even made videos of her barbies with her daughter. It almost seemed like the mom was having more fun with the dolls than the daughter. After I watched a few videos getting ideas of little crafts to make for dolls, I realized I am totally like this lady. I have so much fun setting up the doll house. I love making clothes and dressing up her baby dolls. I remind myself of my mom. When I was little she used to dress all my barbies  and set them up for me after I went to bed so they were ready for me the next day. I guess I'm still a little girl at heart. And seeing Jess get so excited about putting these little babies to "nigh night" in their little cribs makes it even that much more fun. 

Happy 4th of July!

We had a great busy 4th of July with the family. Our day started off with a movie. 

 We all went to watch Brave. This was Jessalyn's first movie since she was a newborn. She was pretty excited about it. There was a grumpy old woman sitting in front of us that turned around every time Jess made a noise. And given it was an 11:00 movie for KIDS filled with kids then she should have expected it was going to be noise.  And there was no way I was going to try to make my toddler be quiet during a movie. So I guess she finally had enough and stormed off. Oh well. If she didn't want kids to be at the movie she should have gone at 8 or 9 at night. 

Other than that, Jess had a great time. She sat and played on the steps through half of the movie but she still had fun. The funniest part was when she said "Oh no!" really loud and she made the whole theater laugh. Haha. 

After the movie we all met up at the pool. She didn't last very long at the pool. I decided to take her home early to take a nap since she was going to be up late watching the fireworks. She fell asleep as soon as we left the pool and stayed asleep all the way home and when I laid her in bed. 

Then we went on over to the Bailey's house for a BBQ. All the kids sat on the floor to eat. It was way to hot to eat outside. She thought she was pretty cool sitting with all the kids. 

Of course she loved the Bailey's dog. She did get to play outside with her for a little while. 

After we all ate and hung out for a little while we went on over to Jordan's school to watch the fireworks. 

The kids got to play with bubbles and run around. 

She had fun with the bubbles but hasn't learned how to blow them yet. She was almost putting it in her mouth and said and saying "Bubble, bubble, bubble." with her mouth really close to it hoping that would make bubbles appear. Haha. 

And we just snacked and waited. 

Silly Ro Ro loved sitting in Jessalyn's chair. I love that face he is making!

Caleb was being sweet and helping Jess blow her bubbles. It's so cute hearing Caleb call her "Jessie Jess"

Then she got to watch fireworks for the first time. We didn't watch any last year because I went home sick from heat exhaustion. She was very entranced with them.

Roman kept saying "I'm so excited!" 

She enjoyed the fireworks for about a whole two minutes before she passed out. Maybe she will get to watch the whole thing next year.